Joshua’s Blog

Hey everyone,

Yes, I am still alive! It has been awhile since I posted, and there have been reasons for it. Mostly I wanted to give myself time to settle things going in my life, and come to terms with it before I tell the world.

I moved to Southern, NH on August 11th, 2007 almost four months ago. A month ago I moved again, not the five hundred miles I did before, only a tenth of a mile now. Chris, and I ended out relationship around October 16th, 2007 and I was asked to leave. We ended on good terms, our personality clashed too much and it was decided that it was better to end as friends then as enemies. I still see Chris at least once or twice a week. Chris has also found a new boyfriend, whom he is happy with! I am so happy for him, and as his friend, all I care about is that he is happy! (I am being serious, please don’t read into anything.)

I still work at Wal-Mart, I am coming up on my 90-days soon. I hope it turns out well, I have been sat down once formally, but I hope that does not effect my eval to much. I should be moved to a new division soon, Deli/Seafood. It is more money, and it will use my personality and my skills better then produce does. I could sell anything to anyone, including the kitchen skin!

Other then the move, and the worries about work, I am doing great. I am trying to eat healthier so I can loose weight and maybe start going out and trying to meet guys. I need to work on my depression and self-esteem issues first though. Apparently these problems of mine are a lot more evident then I thought. After I was sat down at work last week, I had a anxenity attack and my managers (Co and Store, was sat down by my Assistant Manager) noticed that I seemed upset; my face was beat red and my eyes bloodshot.  They pulled me into thier office and talked with me and, they noticed that I wasn’t making eye contact and that I apparently doubt everything I do, and beat myself up for everything I do wrong. This coaching was just a verbal, which is not as bad as it being a written, but I was freaking out. I think I may need to see someone about this, but I don’t have the money….

Anyone know any good ways to meet guys?

I plan to update my blog more often, if I have anything to write about. I plan to start searching for some tech products to buy, cameras, phones, graphics cards, etc.. I will post what I think here, hopefully yall can give me some help!

Well Peace!

PS: Look forward to a new skin on WP, I should have a new one up soon. Also this was published with Windows Live Writer.