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Archive for April, 2007
Gay Civil Unions passed in New Hampshire
Apr 30th
Well, in case you didn’t know, I am moving to New Hampshire to be with my baby Chris. Last Thursday I knew about follows, but I have not had time to post about it because of work, and the family issues I talked about in “Family Trust? What is that?“.
On Thursday the State Senate of New Hampshire, approved the bill (HB 437) allowing Gay Civil Unions, they approved it 14-10. Earlier this month the House approved it with 243-129, For more on that you can check out Gay Rights Watch’s Article. The Governor is suppose to sign it once it gets on his desk.
I did not know about this when I decided to move, but it is awesome!!
The article is on Reuters, Yahoo, in The Nashua Telegraph (NH) and on Gay.com
This made my week, my month, my life!!
Peace!
Family Trust? What is that?
Apr 29th
Who ever said you can trust family should be smacked. Why you may ask?
I talk to one person out side of my nuclear family, and they knew the fact that I am gay, before my parents or anyone else did. Now when I told them I swore them not to talk about the fact I am gay, or anything else I say to anyone else in the family. Now the fact my parents know I am gay, in my opinion, would not lift this promise. Well apparently they spoke with another part of my family, saying that I have already moved to NH when I said I was going to, talked about the fact my MySpace has my sexual orientation on it and has longer then my parents have knew and then proceeded to give them the URL for it (which is http://myspace.com/joshra).
Now this is not the problem I have, it was not my parents, so who should care? Well the second person, proceeded to talk to my mother. She did not know I made up my mind about moving, only my father did because she already has a problem with it. She did not know about my MySpace, nor the contents of it, and the person who told her about it said “If you don’t like the fact he is gay, don’t look at it” I guess they gave off the impression I am very explicated about my life, and what I do in bed. I must ask, how does a few quizzes, a background of my favorite actor, and the marking that I am gay make it explicated? So, the second person likes to over- exaggerate things, and my mother believes them over me. How nice is that?
So this is yet another sign, that the whole internet knows I am gay, and she has a problem with it, that shows she does not accept me as being gay. Thank god I am moving. Well I was going to mark my profile as private, so this can not happen again, and she can not try to look at it. Then that would show I have something to hide wouldn’t it?
Another family trust issue is with my sister, what a bitch. Another post maybe, or just ask me.
–Edit–
Well, some people have said the bulk of this post is hard to understand, so here is a simpler version
Basicly, a family member knows a lot more about me then my mother does, and they decided to tell someone else in my family a good part of what they knows, then they told me mother. It is now it is a big issue with her, that other people in my family know I am gay, and that I talk to them. Also it seems to be a problem that people on the internet know I am gay, and that I am open about it. It in my opinion shows she does not accept the fact I am gay, and every time I mention that to her, she says I need to see a shrink because I must have problems accepting being gay myself, since I question everything she says. –What a great family I have…
Peace,
~Josh
Yet More Updates
Apr 24th
So here I am, with yet more Updates!
I am moving to NH, there is no question about it. I called T-Mobile today and had my 716 phone number changed to a pre-paid account, and soon I will have a 603 phone number. So If you don’t hear from me on my old number that is why…
I told my father that my plans are finalized, I had told them that I was waiting for Alfred. I was, but I decided that I need to be in NH, and I decided that long before I told my parents. Also, I found out today, that Alfred gave me the extra money for the laptop. Does this say how committed I am to moving? I love Chris, and it pains me to be with out him!
I called Bank of America about changing accounts so when I move to NH, that I have a local routing ABA number. Why is this important you may ask? Because, otherwise my checks will be written from NY, and considered out-of-state to the people in NH, and checks and direct deposits I get in NH will be considered out of state to BoA. Less confusion by doing this change!!
This is all for now, I think!
Peace,
~Josh
Updates about Life, School and Work
Apr 23rd
Everyone basically knows that I am moving, including my boss at work. Once explaining everything, people support me. Kimi is hugely depressed over it, I wish I could make it all better. The only one not onboard is my mother. My mother claims that I have not know Chris long enough to move with him, she says “Maybe if you knew him a couple more years” she would support my move. My view is I need to throw caution to the wind, that life is for the living, and LOVE CAN NOT BE DENIED! Also, if she claims I don’t know him long enough, how will I “get to know him” if I am here, and he is there? I do not plan on waiting for her approval, I am leaving and that’s it. I just figured and so does Chris that she should know. Also per Alfred’s website, I am no longer officially enrolled there. They should be refunding my $150 now.
That $150 will go towards:
1) The cost of Travel (Via Amtrak)
2) Cost of shipping my stuff ($40-50)
3) Pay for external enclosure I already bought ($20)
I am currently waiting for a reply from the school I plan to transfer to in NH. The school is New Hampshire Community Technical College at Nashua and the email I sent basically gave a listing of the course I am or have taken with my grades. I also attached a document that has the same thing, and the course descriptions from ECC’s catalog for all the courses. I sent this all because there NHCTC’s catalog says that I need to send them my transcript and copy of the course descriptions. I can’t send the transcripts until the semester ends, and part of the email is asking when I should send them. The full email is at http://wolfnix.net/NHCTC/email.html and the attachment is located at http://wolfnix.net/NHCTC/ECC-CourseDesc.doc. The only courses I care about transferring is my two English courses (Comp and Lit), Science (Enviro), At least one Social Science, and mythology. I don’t care if I have to retake Programming in VB, it is easy enough.
This semester is almost over. In my lit class I just got my last paper back, I got an A, woot woot. Just my poetry exam is left in that class (5/14/2007). Economics just has the final (5/16/2007), in mythology I have a paper (5/14/2007), one log left (4/30/2007), plus the final (5/16/2007), and lastly in Western Civ. I just have one last test (5/16/2007).
Work Sucks at the moment, we have to move all the collections on the close stacks around. It is fucking annoying. Only good thing is that it more or less guarantees extra horus for me, which I would like to last all summer. I have been working 35 hours since I started back again in October. Almost three years in this place, wow!
During the summer I will also be working for my mother at the Broadway Market on Saturdays. It will get me about $40-$50 a day. This will be starting the 19th of May till the 28th or July or the 4th of August making about twelve Saturdays. That’s an extra $500 for the move, thanks mom.
The Section about my Spring Break is now updated, I will be adding more and more but the basics are there now.
So… Dates to Remember!
5/14/2007 – EN-111 Exam
5/16/2007 – EC-101 Exam
5/16/2007 – HI-100 Exam
5/16/2007 – EN-294 Exam
5/19/2007 – Start working at the B-Way Market
5/20/2007 – Last Sunday at the Library
7/7/2007 – My Mother’s Birthday
7/13/2007 – New Harry Potter Movie
7/21//2007- New Harry Potter Book
8//2007 – Last Day at the Library
8//2007 – Last day at the B-Way Market
8//2007 – Move Date
Peace
~Josh
My Love for You
Apr 23rd
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Poem was written in result to my baby Chris (background) crying when talking to him eariler this morning. I hope it cheers him up!! I posted it to his myspace too!
What is the world coming too??
Apr 21st
This past weekend at Marcella’s a local gay dance club a man was stabbed. At a gay club… It is bad enough that at our clubs you have drugs, pick-ups and people getting drunk outta there minds, you now have people getting stabbed… What is the world coming too?? I was meant to go out to Marcella’s that night for the pageant but I had no way home… I guess it is a good thing I didn’t go. I feel sorry for the people who had to take care of the man who got stabbed, like Nate whose blog I read it off of. He was helping out because someone was out of town, and he had to deal with this…
I read about it at Buffawhat on the article You see a guy stabbed in the club, and you want a job?
Of course only a blurp in the Buffalo News about it, like most problems downtown.
I know this is late, but I had to give my two-cents
Life is a fickle thing
Apr 21st
Life is a fickle thing. Sometimes it ruses you ands sometimes it pulls you down. At the moment life is rushing me. Spring Break ended last week and during it I spent my time with my baby, my boyfriend Chris (Picture Here) and we spent 12 wonderful days together. You can find more information about it here. This is where I talk about my break basically day by day and in more detail.
School is coming to a fast close with only four weeks remaining. My mid term grades I did ok. My lit class I got a C, but that is because the grade was just my fiction exam and not my major paper that had an A on it. For economics I have a B+, just my midterm grade. It is a boring class but what can you do I was only taking it for Alfred, and I am not going next semester but Ill talk about that later. I love my mythology class, I have always have had an interest in it since high school and I have an A- average , I had gotten an 100 on the mid term, a A- on my presentation so this may raise and I am quick happy with it. Lastly my western civ class is alrite, the teacher drowns on to much and we don’t really learn all that much. I have a B+ on that class which is the grade of the first of three exams, I have taken the second but I think I failed it, but you never know with these things…
Going back to what I was talking about before about Alfred State. I cant afford next semester because I can not get enough money for the direct costs (Tuition, Room & Board, Books & Supplies, etc…), the Laptop required for my major, and the indirect costs (moving, cell phone, etc…). There are factors that come into play that causes me not to have the money for it, like my family’s fiscal situation. I sent my letter to Alfred saying that I cant attend, and I requested my deposit ($150) back since it is before May 1st.
So you’re asking what will I do next semester since I am not going to Alfred? I am not going back to ECC either… I am moving in with Chris, whom lives in NH. I cant visit him for a week or two and say good bye it hurts sooo much (Wrote a poem about it). It destroys the both of us. I love him deeply and want to spend the rest of my life with him. I am 100% sure about this too. I plan on having around $2000 saved up before I go, and not having it will not stop me from going, it will just make life harder.
Work is fun, because of spring break I didn’t work the whole time and now coming back there are so many new people. I just hope these extra hours last.
Life is a fickle thing. Once I am with my baby life will be good…
The Never Ending Waiting
Apr 21st
The Never Ending Waiting
By Joshua Altemoos
There is a never ending waiting
to get to the point in life you want
There is a never ending waiting
to find the one you love
There is a never ending waiting
to have everything you want
There is a never-ending waiting
where the waiting is what kills
I cant wait for my waiting to end
The waiting is to be with the one I love
Saying goodbye to him became the
worst point in my life
Saying goodbye to him, made us cry
more then we ever have before.
Saying goodbye is a sorrow remark
not wanting to be said, but must be
Only till the never ending waiting does end
And I can be with the one I love never to say good bye again….
