Joshua's Blog

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/18/2009~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I went into work on Wednesday the 18^th. One of my co-workers switched shifts with me, I was working 10-7 and she 9-4. I was to go and see my boyfriend Sam, so she agreed to switch so I could easily find a ride up there to see him.

I work through my day; it is odd for me, because I normally never work short days. My breaks and my lunch were early; the day was going by fast. It hit about 3 pm, and time halted. I seen Sam, a short bearded man with long blonde hair slowly walked across the front of the store. He tried to make it so he didn’t draw attention to himself, but he was watching me out of the corner of his eyes as I smiled winking at him. He walked out of the door and my body shivered, knowing he was so close to me, but out of reach. Time slowly creep along, customer after customer, time seemed to have stopped. The only thing, the only thought that rested in my mind knew Sam was within my reach, soon to be in my arms. The only thing that jerked me out of this trance, was him walking in again, he walked along the front with a cup of coffee, and then exited again. My heart raced, knowing he was still there, waiting for me. This made all of my worries melt away, worries of it being a vision, being stood up, being lied to, being let down. Time slows down even more; it is now around 3:45, and I see him again. The man teases me by walking over to the jewelry counter, idly looking at items as I see him in my line of sight. I just wanted to slap him, or to hug him, for distracting me from the mundane tasks that Corporate America requires of me. Time creeps by and slowly inches to 4:05, a co-worker creeps up behind me and throws his items down onto the counter. He informs me he is here to relieve me. I start to have butterflies in my stomach right about now. All day I worried, and was anxious about meeting Sam, and holding him, and being with him, the man I wanted to get to know. I was anxious now knowing I would be able to do all of these things.

I slowly walk from my post, and clean up, I walk to the back of the building and spot Sam, I take his hand and pulled him along with me, not wanting to lose a second of time with him. I clock out, and we go out to his car, I am more anxious now, not because I have met him, but because I will now meet his mother, and his sister. I learn that I was anxious for noting, they are nice people. We slowly drove from Amherst to Claremont. There are some delays because of snow storms, but we make it in one piece. I spend the whole night holding Sam and talking to him, getting to know him.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/19/2009~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wake up with Sam in my arms; we slowly get up and welcome the new day. We walk out into his kitchen, and make coffee, and make breakfast. We talk as I help him clean up, making life easier for him and everyone else. We spend the day talking, taking walks, and slowly getting to know each other. We make dinner, and then fall asleep in each other’s arms.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/20/2009 1/2~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It is my last day with Sam for awhile. I have grown close to this man, and don’t want to leave; thinking out it brings me to tears. I slowly work through the day, and relaxed with Sam as well. I help him clean up some more, and got my things together. Around 8pm, my friend Shiloh comes and picks me up, and takes me back to her place for a party I helped get together at her and her mate’s house. I cried for almost an half-an-hour after leaving Sam. I have fallen for him, and now know it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/20/2009 2/2~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I arrive in Brookline around 9pm, and enter the house of fur. Everyone is here already: Alison, Anec, Artic, Corin, Ilobmirt, Kit, T-Fox, Tucker, Sliver and last but not least Sy. I start making my round, taking pictures, hugging everyone and smiling. We make an impromto visit to WalMart, we buy all of their glow sticks, and a collar for myself. We danced and partied out way into the next day,

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/21/2009~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Everyone wakes up to Sliver showing up with his fiancé Raksha, They come bearing the gift of donuts. Everyone piles down and has there breakfast. Most of the guys left for a trip to Salem, Anec and Tucker to BestBuy, and the rest of us were out of run errands and hang out.

Shortly before the girls and I got to leave, Arctic noticed that the box of donuts caught on fire… I put the fire out with the extinguisher, but we spend the next three hours cleaning up the baking soda from the dry extinguisher. After we scrub the whole house down, and cleaned everything we head out. It is now about 1pm. We head down to Nashua to Fun Land. This is my first time being in such an arcade, I was excited. I slowly made my way around the machines, and the games. I won some tickets, but Arctic and Shiloh kept on hitting the jack pots, it was great! I was happy to them. Together they won over 4000 tickets. I won about 1000 and Raksha won around 500. I am looking at the prizes on display, and the girls come over and hand me there ticket receipts. I give them a confused look, and the girls say; these are for you. I am now shocked, they are giving me more than 4500 tickets! I almost fall over because of it, but I say thank you and send them away, plotting and planning on what to do to thank them, and remember I heard Arctic talking about how she wanted one of the chairs that were there, and I look up at it, and I decide to redeem some of the tickets for it, a present for Arctic, and for group use. I decide to but that, 4 rubber bats, 4 bracelets to spread the gift for everyone. The girls now start to yell at me for doing this, them wanting me to have spent it on myself, and I laugh at them and tell them to get over themselves and to come on.

We leave fun world and head around town, we visit the mall, and then we visit one of the local variety shops, this is my first time in a shop that have an 18/21+ section in it. IT was a blast, and I found a bunch of stuff I now plan on saving for.

We head back to Brookline, and I discover we have a new visitor. We pull up and find a bonfire going; Anec, Tucker, Sy, Logarth, T-Fox and Ilobmirt are standing around watching it. We have a fun time until almost 3am, including burning a laptop, among other wood, and paper products.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2/22/2009~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We all wake up, and start to make breakfast and lazy about. It is a slow morning and everyone is just relaxing. Around 1pm, Shiloh and I took Ilobmirt back home to Mass, and on the way back had to drive though a snow storm. We returned around 5pm and relaxed with everyone else watching Dr. Who. It is a slow and fun day, a good time to whine down after a few days of crazy.

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I am happy that I am getting out more, and experiencing life, instead of being cooped up inside of my apartment. I am experiencing love, companionship, and friendship. Life is getting back to normal after almost two years of iritic depression.

Hope to talk to yall soon <3

Wag more, bark less
~Loki

Chris, Hedi (A friend of Chris and I), April (Chris’s Sister) and myself all went to Club 313 in Manchester, NH last week. Here are some pictures!! We had a lot of fun, and this was the first time out since I moved here! 313 is a awesome LGBT club as well, offering something for everyone, any age!